This post is going to be a bit of a mess. I’ll start with the bad. That dental work I had last week? Well it awoke a “sleeping giant” as my dentist called it. The tooth next to it is a tooth I had a root canal on about 6 years ago. Apparently it wasn’t done correctly and it’s now causing me a great amount of pain. It started out dull and it’s progressed to radiating through my jaw and my whole head. I broke down and started taking Tylenol, which relieves the pain completely for about 6 hours at a time. I’m disappointed because I wanted to avoid taking medication but I know the pain isn’t good either. Anyway I’ve been referred to a specialist who has a 65% success rate with re-treat root canals so we are going to give it a try Thursday. If he gets in there and it doesn’t look like it will be successful then they will do an extraction and a bone graft so that I can have an implant. Blahhhhh. I could use some prayers. 

At church yesterday, one of the young members who will be graduating high school next weekend gave the Message. She spoke about moving on and it was mainly directed at her peers but I was surprised how much I connected with this. And how emotional I became. I never thought I’d be moving on to this part of my life. After the struggles I faced. It’s finally time. (Well almost.) But the whole time I was also thinking about the journey to get here, as well as those I’ve connected with during this time. When I didn’t have support (well minimal) in my real life, I found it here. I received my first Mother’s Day gift from one of you amazing ladies. I cannot express what this gesture, as well as all gestures mean to me. Thank you. The young lady (I feel so old using that term but she was composed and conducted herself like a lady) ended with Jeremiah 29:11-12.

11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.

I was very overwhelmed by this. I’ve been praying a lot lately and with this has come a sense of peace. I know things are going in a good direction right now but I really am at a place of peace. This baby will truly be a rainbow baby. I was faced with a storm for a reason but I am surely glad it’s clearing up. I hope that if you are still struggling to move on to the next step that you can put faith into the plan God has for you. And I hope your prayers are answered.

Now to the good news. The ultrasound showed a wiggly baby GIRL. I had really thought it was a boy so I was a bit surprised. This wasn’t a diagnostic ultrasound but baby looked good – head was nice and round, fingers and toes all there. We are very happy and I pray she continues to develop and grow to be a healthy girl. We will have the diagnostic ultrasound next month sometime. She did give us the middle finger though – my husband said, “That’s how I knew she was mine.” 

Prayers for all of you 🙂


Unmedicated Sinus Infection….

Since I was in college, I’ve had chronic sinus infections. And when I get one, I’m out. It’s like I have the flu. Fever, body aches, all the symptoms. I’ve been getting them for so long, I know the course and Saturday it started. I was due for one. And it’s been awful. I can do the nasal rinse but I can’t take my go-to med (Sudafed). Yesterday I ran a low-grade fever all day. I don’t know what I would do (besides lose my mind) if I didn’t have the doppler here at home. I can always check on baby and ensure it’s still alive. I had some dental work this last week and had a bad reaction to the local anesthesia. I felt so guilty and like I put the baby at undue risk. But my doctor’s nurse assured me that it’s okay. But I feel like no amount of reassurance will make me feel like I am really, really, REALLY going to hold my baby in my arms in 5 months. 

My husband turns 32 this week and my gift to him (and to myself of course!) is to have an elective ultrasound to determine the sex of McBaby. I will be 16 weeks 3 days so I’m hoping we are able to find out. Talking about this pregnancy is getting easier but I am somewhat thankful that you can’t yet tell I’m pregnant. I like being able to bring it up when I’m feeling okay talking about it. 

Hope all of you are well! Looking forward to updates from all of you!