Settling In

***Pregnancy update post***

I am almost 26 weeks. So that means we have passed viability!!!! I think I mentioned in an earlier post that the baby is measuring 4 days ahead and in the 95th percentile in weight so today at my doctor appointment, my OB ordered another ultrasound because my belly is measuring ahead as well. I’m excited to get another chance to see our little girl again. Have I shared that we picked out a name?? Andersen Elisabeth. We’ll probably call her Andie. There wasn’t much of a debate although Scott like Lauren best but for now it’s Andersen.

Something my counselor suggested to me early on in this pregnancy was to wait to worry about things until it was time. I really took that to heart and it helped me get from milestone to milestone. But it wasn’t until the viability milestone that I’ve started to settle in to being pregnant and began to enjoy it. I’ve been very thankful since the beginning but the worry and anxiety made it hard to enjoy it at times. Around 20 weeks I started to think, “What if nothing is wrong” instead of thinking about all that could go wrong. So the last month has really been different and a definite welcomed change.

I never really bought in to the whole nesting concept but WOW…. the last week I have been going crazy making lists of things that need to be done in the house before the baby comes. I think part of it might be that I start work August 1, which I’m so excited about.

I’ve been blessed with an uneventful pregnancy (minus the tooth crisis which is finally OVER!!!!) and I’m glad I’m finally able to enjoy this time. Thank you for all the well wishes and support.

Saturday will be one year since my miscarriage. What a long freaking year – wow. I’ve grown so much as a person and wife since last year. I still wish I didn’t have to know what it’s like to lose a pregnancy and I still wonder why. I think I will always have these feelings when I think about what I experienced. But I’m sure when the baby comes, it might help me be closer to understanding that she wouldn’t have been possible if I hadn’t lost my pregnancy last year.