Well the blood pressure hasn’t gone down and after my doctor spoke with me about the risks of continuing this pregnancy and the risks of inducing, I have agreed to be induced tomorrow.
I don’t want to take any chances with my sweet baby girl. I will start pitocin tomorrow morning around 7:00 am. I’m scared – scared of the pitocin, scared of labor, and scared I won’t be strong enough to do it. But so very excited to meet this active little girl, excited to see what she looks like, and excited to feel the love I have only dreamed of.
Today somewhat brings me full circle. I remember last October 15 – Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. I was so broken I couldn’t even write about it. And now, a year later, I’m finally going to be welcoming my love in to the world.
I pray for strength for all of you mommies who have lost little ones, no matter how little they were.